Hated him for hiding things from me and not talking to me when I never could imagine hurting him in any way. But it's not who I want to be..I'm struggling to overcome this and I decided on gratitude.
2nd Jan 2015..thot it was the last I'd see of him..
It was a beautiful nite. He was sick..told him to cancel but he insisted on meeting me. We had a good time and on the way back he pulled to kiss me and how can i forget the avatar trees at gardens by the bay and then we made love too that nite under the stars...grateful to make love to the man I fell in love with..it was perfect. Had to kiss him goodbye that nite..sad
But for some reason I was given another year with him..i should be grateful for that blessing..after so long it was unbelievable that I was lucky enuff to have this amazing man in my life. I should feel grateful..how else would I have that smile on my face every single day? He made me feel special and gave me the affection I had missed for so long..the affection I deserved..he was my best friend, my lover, my companion..all that I had wanted in a man.
He was there to encourage me through everything I did..he was there for me to share my ups and downs..but wid him ard..life jus seemed so much more pleasant.
That year, we had a valentine's brunch, our birthday outings, went out dancing, rock climbing, scuba..chilling by the beach side pool..which we loved and had the chance to meet up so many nites..stayed over for a staycation..kissed..made love and even went across the border for dinner with the kids..all I can remember was me smiling every single time we were out
No..I shouldn't feel he came to break me into pieces but he was the angel who came to give me what I was longing for..jus that what ppl have for a lifetime was mine only for a year or should I say lasted an entire year! I should be grateful for meeting the love of my life even if he's not around now..
I love you baby😚
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